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Why I’m not waiting any longer

Emma Grey

About ten years ago, I did my first radio interview.

It was recorded from the comfort of my own home, on the phone, and even then I was so petrified I invited my best friend over to hold my hand, literally, while I burned a relaxation votive from Dusk, shook in my boots and hoped I’d be able to retrieve the power of speech.

Since then, with every passing interview, it’s become less terrifying. In the last three weeks, I’ve done nine or ten promoting I Don’t Have Time – each more relaxed than the last. In fact, I’m now so relaxed on the airwaves, I’ve started to fantasise about having my own radio show … a goal brewed over a few years, truth be told.

When Audrey and I were interviewed by the lovely Becca Posterino from Canberra’s community radio station, 2XX, I watched as she deftly managed the control panel and cued song tracks and asked questions, and I thought, ‘I want to do that!’

‘Can you teach me how to do that?’ I asked, without overthinking it.

Audrey glanced at me nervously. We have a second book due to the publisher in June, and our weeks are almost fully occupied promoting the current one. I’m a single mum of three now, and have other family responsibilities too … surely this isn’t the right time?

The thing with grief is that it gives you a perspective that is so high and so wide, all you can see from your vantage point is that life is short. I knew if I left that interview without speaking up and taking the risk of trying something new, I’d regret it.

It’s never going to be the ‘right time’. If we’re not scaling this mountain, we’ll be scaling the next one. It’s not about seizing every opportunity and saying ‘yes’ so much that you can barely move from the overwhelm. It’s about reaching out and cherry-picking the really juicy stuff which, for me, right now, happens to be learning how to be a radio announcer and volunteering on community radio.

One day I might get to interview someone by phone. Someone who’s sitting at home, quaking in their shoes, terrified of being on air or making a fool of themselves. Someone exactly like the person I was once, who doesn’t yet know that after they’ve done it a few times it will get easier. Maybe even fun. Maybe it will spark a new passion and a chance for some more growth and connection and contribution in a little corner of the world somewhere … or more.

Watch this space.

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Emma Grey

Emma Grey is the Canberra-based author of ‘Wits’ End Before Breakfast! Confessions of a Working Mum’ and ‘Unrequited: Girl Meets Boy Band’. She’s director of the life-balance consultancy, WorkLifeBliss and co-founder of a fresh approach to time-management, My 15 Minutes. She lives just over the ACT border with her two teen daughters and young son. More about the Author

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