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General Anaesthetic? Here I come!

Emma Grey

By the time you read this, I will be in hospital, prepping for surgery.

It is nothing to worry about (I don’t care who knows and don’t wish to create unnecessary drama, so will just tell you: I’m having an endometrial ablation for fibroids/bleeding and tubal ligation, and removal of a lump that is most likely a cyst. Hopefully I don’t get too many ‘unsubscribes’ for sharing that detail, but why not talk about this stuff? Totally normal.)

The point is this: I am looking forward to the general anaesthetic. This is where we diverge into ‘hang on, that’s actually not totally normal…’

A period of time completely disconnected. Not just with my phone off. With my consciousness off.

No mother with dementia. No 15-year-old with Anxiety. No waiting up for the 17-year-old to come home safely. No five-year-old described as ‘can be very defiant’ in the Kindy report …

No worrying financial stuff.

No difficult work issues. No complex corporate training proposals. No pushing myself into a corner with the current novel-plot. No editing on the My 15 Minutes book. No submitting the first novel to publishers. No rejections.

No housework. No mess. No lunches. No dryer-filter-doesn’t-go-back-together-after-clean, no ‘oven door handle has fallen off’, no need to  declutter …

No need-to-lose-weight … to get fit, to cut hair, to dye it, to fix nails, to shape body …

No friends with relationship problems. No sister trying to sell her house. No best friend’s husband looking for a new job …

No friend with pancreatic cancer, and acquaintance with terminal melanoma and friend-of-a-friend with weeks to live from a brain tumour …

No wondering what if, and what next, and am I good enough …

No. ANYTHING. For a little while.

Deliciously … blank.

My GP told me recently that our forties are often the most stressful decade in life, just because of where we sit in the scheme of the things. The more stressful things are, the more breaks we need. The more we have to do, the more time off we ought to take.

A general anaesthetic is not the answer! Looking forward to being knocked unconscious from the world? No. Not good enough.

What’s really needed now is a proper, conscious escape. And dreaming one up is going to be the only thing on my ‘to do’ list this week.


Emma Grey

Emma Grey is the Canberra-based author of ‘Wits’ End Before Breakfast! Confessions of a Working Mum’ and ‘Unrequited: Girl Meets Boy Band’. She’s director of the life-balance consultancy, WorkLifeBliss and co-founder of a fresh approach to time-management, My 15 Minutes. She lives just over the ACT border with her two teen daughters and young son. More about the Author

  • Emma
    I can totally relate I am mid 40’s had a major mental and physical breakdown last year. It was a long time coming but I would loving nothing more than to just disconnect for a period of time. A GA sounds perfect to me, because you are totally and blissfully unconscious. No dreams or nightmares, no worries, no depression or the fleeting mania that comes and goes. Just complete and total nothingness.
    I know I could runaway and disconnect turn off all the devices, disconnect from tv and the news (which I have mostly done – the news that is lol.) But none of that actually disconnects my mind in a way that the nothingness of a GA brings. Of course I am being flippant and am more than aware that any form of surgery is serious so would never actually do this ummm at least I am pretty sure I can’t get a dr to give me one just because!
    Hugs I hope that all goes well for you I had the Tubal Ligation 9yrs ago and a growth removed from my ovaries 11yrs. Though before that had mre than my fair share of gyny related ops!
    Cathy (aka Kit)

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